Smoke

I always hated people smoking…it’s such a bad habit…it gets your breathing smelly and damages your teeths..and hurts your lungs…and just no happy side of this…

My whole family is smoking….so i’m used to it…but even so i choke while breathing beside them while they smoke

Anyway…to get to my point…i just turned 18 when i first smoked…and i loved the feeling i got…i felt like a grown up…i felt dizzy like when you drink too much…and then…i felt calm…it’s strange how i never thought a simple cigar will make you feel so good and calm…i just loved the feeling…

So i smoked about a month…and only like 3 packs of them…because my lungs felt sick…started coughing..and i was afraid…

Now…these days…i’m missing the feeling smoking gave me… I mean…i still hate the concept because i know how bad it is for the health…but still…i really miss smoking..just one cigar..

Don.t be afraid. I promise my boyfriend i won.t smoke again…it.s just that i miss the dizziness and the calm feeling…

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Dear November

Welcome…how are you? will you be cold? will you be shiny? will you bring the frozen mornings or foggy city? 

Will you pass just as fast as October? or you will linger and make December jealous?

Please just be good to me…help me get better and when you see i’m lost and sad just give one glimpse of sun so i can feel a little better…

Dear November…dear november…just be good to me…

I promise i will make you proud…October will be sad i wasn’t doing much at that time…but you must not care. 

 You know you are my chance…you are my new begining…you are my hope and oportunity

I will be better in November! I will do much more!
Welcome…welcome…dear November
With love,

Kitty